Monday, April 8, 2013

Limited Sight Take Two

It is totally ironic, now, that when we first launched this blog we used a subtitle "A Journey of Faith With Limited Sight".  When we used that phrasing we were obviously talking about ourselves and this new journey we would walk to adopt a child that we could not see, a journey of faith to where we could not see how it would play out in just about every way.  Would we be approved, how would we complete the paperwork process, from where, how would we pay for it, will it be a girl or boy, what will their special need be, when will we know their face?  Then it became what part of Ch*na will we travel too.  when will we travel, will we be able to handle her special need, how will attachment and bonding go, will Ch*na give us approval for her? There were so many unknowns, there still are, really the only thing we can stand firm on was that we were to adopt, everything else was a question of the unknown.  Faith is believing in what you can't see, so it was stepping out into the unknown that made this a Journey of Faith With Limited Sight.  Now, today I am finding it extremely ironic that our daughter, who waits for us until she comes home, will also have limited sight.  Hers, however, will be a physical condition.  Who knew the day we launched this that we would adopt a little girl with Albinism, and would have vision impairment?  God knew.  We don't know and won't know the extent of Mercy's vision, how well she can or can't see, but we are assured there will be a deficiency of some kind.  So our faith is stretched even more with unknowns because of a "limited sight" need we will face.  It's just crazy to me to think about it now.  It is also fascinating because I've talked with so many now who have a child with albinism and a few adults who have it too.  Their vision impairment doesn't "limit" them at all.  Thankfully we have five senses and so they tend to use the other four to compensate for the limit of one.  I look forward to watching how Mercy will be, wonder if her vision will "limit" her or just be nothing.  It also makes me think about how, though we all have five senses, during this faith walk my ability to see has been limited by the unknowns.  I have struggled to see God working His good and perfect plan in all of it.  I have sometimes let my feelings navigate for me instead of His vision.  That is not good, I need to rely more on my other senses, like hearing, that is hearing the Word of God and listening for His still small voice.  And my sense of taste, that is in tasting and seeing that the Lord is good, and my sense of smell, Jesus being the aroma, and even my sense of touch, allowing God to touch those deep corners in my heart that continually fear this whole process.  I'm thinking Mercy will teach me a lot about living with limited sight. Maybe, just maybe, she already is.

Here is a video that gives a glimpse into how a person with Albinism sees, what Mercy's sight might possibly be when we bring her home.   What Can I See


  1. Beautiful post. Mercy is teaching all of us.

  2. My spirit says AMEN to all your observations! God is very good!