Sunday, March 23, 2014

A Simple Kiss

I am writing tonight because I want to mark a long awaited milestone.  Tonight, for the very first time, Mercy impulsively kissed me.  She has kissed me a thousand times, but not without some sort of prompting.  Whether because I kissed her or because I ask her "can I have a kiss?" or someone else prompting her to "give mommy a kiss."  But tonight she was simply sitting on my lap at the kitchen table and out of the clear blue, no prompting, on her own accord leaned in and planted the sweetest, gentlest kiss right on my cheek.   I don't know if I can even describe what that moment felt like.  It was a wave of emotion.  From shock "did she really just do that?"  to surprise "oh my word she just spontaneously kissed me at her own will!" to overflowing joy because a new victory was won tonight.  It will be 10 months tomorrow that this fragile little girl was hoisted on a plane by two strangers who she barely knew and flown half way around the world to a unfamiliar and foreign land.  Ten months of hard work, hardship, hard times intertwined with easy days, good days and moments like tonight.  Moments where everything stops, including the beat of your heart because it has just skipped a beat as a surge of joy passes through it.  Moments when you remember this kiss from her marks a milestone.  It came with a price.  She let her guard down tonight and allowed her heart to love, spontaneously.  It has taken 10 months of her taking in and testing our love to bring her to a moment where she could lean in a kiss a cheek of someone she is growing to trust and love.  I am so so so thankful I get to be that person!!!!!   Thank you Jesus for a simple kiss, a memory I will cherish for as long as I live.


  1. Sweet!! I know you'll cherish that memory for a long, long time..

    1. It was a good reminder to me that I take my other kids kisses for granted and need to recognize the joy in them too!

  2. Oh gosh. I commented yesterday but it seems to be missing :(

    LOVE this post. I love how you key in on recognizing what it took for her to give you that kiss. That she's LEARNING to be loving and spontaneous. And that you captured it so sweetly for us. What a gift these kiddoes are - what a gift to watch them grow.

    Says the well-rested momma who has slept, gasp!, three nights in a row now. Woot Woot! We celebrate that growth here for SURE!!!!!

  3. That is awesome Jane. It is great to see what a complete blessing you have been to this littel girl whom God put onto your heart. Listenning to a program on NPR right now on adoption and thought of you all. It brings tears to my eyes.